What can I say. You already know "you missed it". Can't blame you for feeling jealous. Judging anything of the past by current standards is folly. The violence of the past resulted in your enjoying the peace of the present. Don't take it for granted. It could be taken from you at any moment -- especially if all you can do is sit back and judge those who have paved the way for you. Life is about struggling. Get used to the idea..